my diary

Dropped?

2007-03-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

Checked my result just now.

3 Words to describe my feeling now, Disappointed, Very bad, Lousy.

IT dropped very badly, Didn't expected to see such low GPA.

I swear, I won't see this result again!

Friends???

2007-03-08T02:46:00.000+08:00

Secondary, ITE then poly.

4 years in secondary, 2 years in ITE and 3 years in poly.

Secondary
I'm fortunate to have the brothers during the Secondary days. Laugh, play basketball and shopping together. They changed me and my thinking alot for this 7 years from now, Thanks Broz.

ITE
Sadly, I didn't make a good rapport with my friends in ITE, maybe due to certain situation i met which I didn't handle properly. The only thing i like during ITE which is Fencing and joining SVC (Student Volunteer Corps) . Hah! I love it.

Poly
It has been a year in Poly. People i met and interact and work with, it has a great experiences for me. Lucky got to know this friend of mine, Li Tu. A genius. Change my character and mindset towards future aspect.

But, I didn't make an close relationship with other classmate. Was i showing bad attitude or lossing anger towards them?

I've try to help them in their work or exams, but all this hardwork doesn't paid off. Perhaps I should stop all that i've been doing and Just concentrate in my studies.

Seriously, I dont know. I've try to changed however there's no result shown. 2 more years in poly to fight!!!

Fighting on!

Voluntary friends

2007-03-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hahaz, Communittee and T.F of YVIP. 3 months after so many tough work, This the day where we gather for the last.

Committee members of YV06. On the last day of our camp.

At GreenRigde secondary school.

Plant the seed, grow with passion.

The participants, Committee and T.F and helpers.

Team mates.

2007-02-17T01:46:00.000+08:00

the gold medalist and the bronze.......

Fencers from fencing masters

Novices 2007 ITB team.

Team event NOVICES 2007

2007-01-27T00:49:00.000+08:00

Happy---> got 2 trophy back home.
Sad---> should have gotten Gold or Silver for team event.

Last Saturday was the team event for Men's epee. 20 0ver teams took part. I was with three juniors in a team. Mr Su sent 2 teams ; ITB team A and team B. Jeremy, Jie Hong, Ignatius and me in team A.

2 years ago, I was usually with 2 senior in my team. They were leading the team and guide me through the match. But now, I'm leading 2 teams to competition and they are first time fencing in the team event. I've to do Briefing and leading for this 2 team. Bringing the team morale high isn't that easy to do.

First round,
ITB Team B knock out by SJI team A, Loss by 2 points. I was to be blamed for putting the wrong Angle man position. However My team Met NTU (Nanyang Technological University) team B. The match was alrite for us. Eventually, We beat them. score: 45-33.

Second round,
Our opponent is SMU team B (Singapore Management University). I hated that angle man, shit! Sickening gay, even his fencing standing position so gay. Even worst, he always does the dancing pose, making me piss off! No worries, we win them, quite a easy for us. Score: 45-23.

Third round (semi-final)
We are against the team from Fencing masters. The Gold medalist is in that team. A tough between us. We were 2 points behind them. Later, Somehow i met a man, I don't why he just won't attack me. Hence, I manage to get the point hit 7. He gets Zero.
Yes! my team was leading the point due to my fight just now. Last fight,

i met the gold Medalist. SHUAN PUAL--> Coach's son. Damm, superb tough with him. Fencing half-way through, He fleeche pass me and I counter attacked, he falls and bang against me. Worst still, its on my head. I lye on the floor for few seonds, because I was black-out. I loss my focus and can't react fast. Hence, I loss the match by 1 point. Score: 45-44.

Fourth round (Third and fourth placing)
Again, our opponent is NTU(Nanyang technological university) Team A! The morale of my team getting lower due to the match just now. I've been cheering and boosting them to stay strong. To Be honest, I've loss all my energy in this match because of the hard bangs from the previous match. Lucky, my juniors did really well in this match. We won by 1 point. Score:: 42-41

Got 3rd in this event. I'm felt sorry for my juniors and School. I failed to lead the team to the final. Maybe this is the best i can do for them.

The match that we met, all the opponent are from University, so weird. This proved that ITE student can beat Uni student. DONT LOOK DOWN ON ITE STUDENTS. This is the last time i can fence in this competition, at least i manage to got 2 trophy back. YES! For the up-coming competition, all are national level. Need fight strong to get the Top few rank in singapore.

Thou shall not scare the Blade but to win the fear in me!

Novices 2007.

2007-01-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

Well, quite lucky today. After 2 and half years of fencing training, finally got my first individual achievement, 3rd in place out of 90+ participant.

Stopped training for 6 months, suddenly came back to fencing again. Didn't have any proper training then suddenly Went to competition. Went for competition, just hope can bring something back home as this is the last time i can fence in this competition (Novices championship).

Reach clementi sport, i was shocked to heard 93 participants took part in this competition. It was like WTF!!! Last time it was traditionally to have 35-45 participants. End up 13 boute 7 people each. That mean I've have used Twice of my Energy. Damm, loss 50% of my skill and stamina. How do win?

Round robin was alrite for me, win 5 Lose 1. Lose to ken from NYP. Haix, Never mind. During the Direct emination, Fight till from round of 64 then 32 then top 16 then top 8 then top 4 then loss to fusheng from SMU. During fencing top 16, meet Edward from TSS, I fencing with all my energy in me but still loss by 1 point. HOWEVER, he cheated! Disqualified by the Management of fencing Singapore. I'll loss all my energy i left.

Here come the Interesting part! Meet Fusheng from SMU. All the junior and friends from others school were shouting my name non-stop. It was super stress at that point of time. Our point was so close only 1 point differents. Only till 9-9, i got body clash by him and suddenly Leg clamp.

Holy mama, this is the first time i got leg clamp in my whole life. So shitty at that point of time, haix. I've took part in so many competition for this 2 years, Never got hit and body clash on me so many time. In the End loss to him.

GOlD- Sean Pual from Fencing master, Silver-Fusheng from SMU, Bronze-mengshyan from ITE and other guy -nameless.

Overall, I've build a close relationship with the juniors, about 10 of them. Haha, quite fun them. Crappy fellows. Hopefully they'll continue to fence for ITE for next few years.

Coach, I've proven to you that even u dont train me personally, I still can win something for myself. After 2 year plus. You finally praise me. After all, I'll stil said thanks you coach.

YVIP 2006 chairman: vick.

2006-12-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'll cover the 5day 4night camp on the next post as i don't have enough time to brief on that. Well, i would like to said some words to vick.

Vick,
Its has been 2 years we meet each other. You are the one who brought me in Yv family. I'm learn so much in here, making a 180 degree change in me.

The moment u asked me to help out in YVIP06 camp, i agree without thinking of any second thought. Because, i always believe u will fight together as one whole comm to win. Since u bought me in this family, i shall do something to everyone that i'm exist of pushing SVC to higher level. Thousand thanks to you, if it wasn't you, i wouldn't be as strong as before.

Our 3 months of hard had finally shown. You guided us to run this camp, this is our result, do u feel great? hah!

This is my first time be in the Comm doing logistic stuff, sometimes there's some problems here and there however u still manage to help us in that. Thank you again. I didnt expect that logistic is that tough to manage, So many hidden stuff which i can't predict however i'll took it as a challenge.

Vick, someday i hope i can be good enough like u to inspired everyone. You are the role i always want be.

end here 12.31am
plant the seed, grow with passion.
Mengshyan

OFF MODE

2006-11-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

I'm confused

I'm blank

I'm sick

I'm tired

I'm going to dry soon.

Hopeless, Useless, only disappointment!
12.52am

SORRY

2006-10-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

Came back from YV meeting just now, quite tiring after a long hours of school lecture then went to meeting. Was late 2 hours for meeting, didnt expected that the whole Comm was waiting for kokwei and i. Got lecture by vick, should have tell them we were late. Come to worse, didnt even print out important notes. Really sorry for all the COmm, please forgive me. Haix, what a day.

Intend to join tennis as my CCA, hmm something interesting. Give it a try, another new taste. Will i be the next U.S open champion? Hah!

End here
admit it, learn from it, never ever repeat it.
1.54am.

Changing image!

2006-10-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

At china, visiting my relative.

well well, what a day man, just came back from work. During working, i dropped my spect from 2nd to 1st storey. A slide damage in my spect. I guess, i should change a new a spect to school.

Got a hair cut at TM yesterday. Hmm, quite satisfied with it. A new style image. Went to bought birthday gift for Jolene. Just a cup with her name on it. Hahaz, D.I.Y.

Sometimes, I've been thinking. Since secondary time to till now, I've have been helping many people in their studies or some problem they cant deal with. Yet this people ought to take things for granted. Again, I'm left out. I guess good people wont be remember or to thanks. Never mind, i know what i've always wanted and aim. Cant just feel sad for all this nonsense, Just looks ahead and positive.

Speak with your true heart

2006-10-21T11:56:00.000+08:00

School have started for 1 week, had been busy over report and project again. New classmates and new Environment.

This time round feel quite weird with only 11 people in my class. So quiet with only 11 people attend the tuturial class only. Even sometimes try to get a nap in class will easily noticed by lectures. Damm, didnt expect that less people in the class. The good things is, more focus during lecture and less distraction.

Luckily there's mark to study with. There's a guy called James, 39 year-old. sponsors by RSAF to study again. Can said is our big boss in our class.

Had a chat with Tutu last night, told him all problems inside me for so long. He had given me many advices to deal with. Thanks man, you are the advicer for me, hah! Though many things are complicated, sometimes it doesnt goes as it usually does.

Looks like things doesnt goes well in a YVIP this year, participant dont seem not as much as expected. Yesterday, i can see many stress coming up in vick's eyes. I hope this wont bought many problems to him.

Alrite, Finished
Been cool and fashion.
12.35pm Noon

WHAT IT TAKE TO BE A LEADER?

2006-10-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

Pictures of me at sydney.

Many times i asked myself, WHAT IT TAKE TO BE LEADER! leadership, determination and motivation for others. I guess i don't have this three in me. I said this it is because I've make a huge mistake today.

As usual every Sunday went to work. Every afternoon Uncle always stress me to bringing all the stocks from the lorry to upstairs and everyone is working fast enough. I yelled at one of my colleague ( David ) to stuck things properly on the board.

What a HUGE mistake i did. I don't why i always have this habit of scolding my worker to move fast. Perhaps i don't understand the flow of it. I shouldn't had yelled at him as he is learning in the mean time. PLEASE CONTROL YOUR TEMPER, I've said many time to myself but failure again.

After this incidents, I'll make sure this wont happened it again. Finding ways to lead them to work fast and get things done properly. To gain the respect from others.

School start tomorrow morning, again I'm here at this hours rotten. Staying up late, wake up early, stressing on reports, project and lecture notes. Other hell training again. This time round, hopefully my GPA would either maintain or Rise to 3.5 before I go for UNI. Because i wanna make my MOM proud of it.

Need to cope well with studies, work and also YV06 camp. This gonna be a new challenge for me.

Alrite, all the best for tomorrow sch
I'll climb to the TOP
End here 2.04am

Time for new target.

2006-10-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

Just finish discussion with kokwei about the yv06 camp. Chit awhile with him, get to know his family and relative's relationship better. His brother has set a good example for him what to do for his futher.

Earning money to surport the whole family. Since u are young enough why dont u earn as much as money to surport ur whole family and lead them to a better life. If u are capable to do so many things at a young age, quickly grad every chances in life to meet to the best. Get know more people and understand them in order to a better view of them.

I agree with what he said to me, no point thinking so much time on those problem that wont help in futher. Spend ur time improve yourslef reaching ur goals.

thanks for the talk bro, you've changed me.

BECAUSE OF YOU

2006-10-10T02:13:00.000+08:00

What a day MAN! having Flu in the morning, quickly rush up to meet Two of my friends. Headed to town area, shop shop walk walk browse browse.

Bought a black jackers t-shirt which jolene choose for me. Kept said me wearing t-shirt, no others outfits suit her taste, OH MAN! whats wrong with wearing t-shirt! some t-shirt are nice Alrite, never mind.. give it a try on that black jackers shirt, hmm.. kailin said i looks so different from the past. HMM, i think its time to get some new outfits for me.

went to M-industry, KL wants to get a dress for herself, but nothing new there as the cloths there still the same. Next, its TIMES bookstore. stay quite long, browsing some books. Come across to this Vincent Ng books. How to build ur body in many ways. Gosh, i hope I've a body like him. So sexy and manly. Bought a book. I AM GIFTED, SO ARE YOU!. Self-improvement book again.

Received a message from the CNC department ask me to go for second round of amplitude test again, hah!. This time round i wont miss any chance again. I'll do anything to get into world skill competition. Miss a chance in ITE, this time I'll never repeat the same mistake.

Maybe thoughts in me let my imagination run wild again. What does God planned this way on me? its have been so long! after so many years, its the same problem i face again. What is the main motive behind it? I hope it can comes to a end for us without any conflict in between.

End here.
I love improve to my limit.
2.33am

LIGHT OF HOPE

2006-10-09T03:56:00.000+08:00

hey hey, was busy this few day then didnt blog. Well, stupid haze around recently causes many people moody. I having difficult in breathe due to my asthma as to the haze too! PEOPLE do drink more water.

went catch a movie last night, ROOD-B-HOOD 宝贝记划. This show i can said is the best show i ever watch in this year. there was certain parts of the show exciting, sad and funny. I love it. Can recommand to all your friends.

Recently told something shouldnt said to someone, never mind, life still have to carry on.

Daniel has drawn this pics, really nice. Xueping and vick is gonna question is this pics again on us. haix.

some thought kept drowning in my brain, YES or NO. Saying are easily than doing. Never mind, concentrate on what u do is right for u.

By the way, timetable in school for me is so sickening crap, i hate. however have endure for 5 months. too bad. Stay up late for reports, wake up early for school, practising maths, mugging lecure notes and projects. This kind of life can killeds.

ok, stop here. Getting hungry, hah!
i've beem so foolish
4.52am.

Melborne

2006-10-02T03:14:00.000+08:00

Miss those beautiful scenery in Australia (melbourne). Really relaxing.

Hopefully somedays i'll be back there again. As the winds blow on your face, U felt as if u in other wourld. Sound of the breeze relaxed your soul.

Always lives what u believe in,
smile and slove it through.

End here, 3.37am
think positivly and systematically.
goodnite. (^_^)

I dont wanna see

2006-10-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna see

it was so sweet when u were beside me
words u said drive me crazy
i wish time would stop when u were with me
frangrants of u still lingering around
wasnt it too good to be true
smile of yours in my memory

I dont know why u leaves
Please tell me the reasons
I dont think its ur decision
Tells me its a lie of yours
I dont wanna see...

everynight we share love and thoughts
with just a touch of yours feel so good
all i've to do is to wait
patients of mine slowly died off
you are so special to me ohhh...

i hate myslef for putting so much effort
just a foolish act of mine
mayb our soul doesnt match
u've choosen him
i'm gone forever..

Nothing better to do just listened to this music and found this lycis quite nice, listen to it many times. I mistaken today is not moon cake festive, IT'S next saturday. Hahaz, short-term memory.

Holidays left with 2 weeks, cant wait for school reopen.

ENDS HERE
what lies ahead
1,36am
Goodnite

HOLIDAYS

2006-09-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

hmm, holidays.. Many thoughts came into my mine. Thinking over alot of Problems, WHAT IF, WHAT WOULD HAPPENED, HOW TO SOLVE IT. Nehh, better stop thinking and just looks ahead.

Just finish watching SAMURAI 7 whole series. Understand how wars been through. Losing your best buddy in the war is un-controlable.

Just received a application letter from SAF, a letter for signing up to be a Engineering Specialist. The Paid from them seems quite high and lots of benefits. However they dont sponspor for university, Mom dont enourage me to sign and also from uncle. Words from my uncle--> If want to a boss of your own earning as much as u want then forget about the letter just do it your style. Intially wanted to sign up but doesnt have any freedom. Hmm, didnt plan that far so just hack care about the letter.

Tomorrow night is Moon cake festive. My friends and i always used to gather around at night and burn all the papers candles we have, wahahaha, quite fun. Looks like tomorrow night cant make it as everyone is working and busy with, hiaz, really miss it alot.

Went out with 2 of my friends yesterday, catch a movie " THE HUANTED APARTMENT". Dont seems to be scarly at all. Haiz, $10 gone. Bought 2 t-shirt from M-industry at 50% off! wahhh, worth it. Yup, also a book " STUDY LESS LEARN MORE". A slef-improvement book.

Shop business doesnt seems to do well as before. After the fire Tragedy, some of the old customer still thought that Mong Lee Minimart will not resume, but we still standing strong here. Same goes to the warehouse, some of the bosses hasnt beem coming back to take goods from us. Maybe need some time for business to flow well.

Alrite, end here.
Should i or should i not!
Bye 1.24am

I'm BaCk..

2006-09-28T01:32:00.000+08:00

hey peepz, finally after such a long period of time, i'm back to this blog. Yup, it's after 2 year ago since i last blog it. Hah, time pasted really fast.

1, Thousand thanks to wayne, he is the one who help me to re-create this blog again. thank again bro.

2, Sorry for my singlish, My English suck man. do laugh as loud as u want.

3, The last blog i did, was i still in my ITE year one. But now, i'm already in poly. Unbelieveable, studying in poly is my biggest hope in one of my dreams when i was 13. Now, i'm here in NanYang Polytechnic. Thank God and My Mom. Mom has beem so surpportive on me, paid school fees and hire private tutor for me. I wanna shout it loud, I LOVE U MOM. Oh yah! ur cooking is the best, yeah! No one can fight with my Mom cooking. although, Mom always hoping i can get into University, however i felt pressure from that the point she is thinking. Partly, i also dont wanna disappointed her. Moreover, she had put in alot of high hopes in me. I'll do my best for you no matter how tough is the road gonna block me ahead.

4, Poly, this word sounds great in many student from ITE however, it's isn't a good place to survive. getting a GPA of 3 to 3.5 in ITE, is a pretty easy job but in poly, is a totally different story, getting a 2.5 - 3.5 required very hard work. I didnt expect that tough. As what Ronny told me, IF U WANNA GET 3.5, U MUST WORK 3 TIMES AS HARD WHEN U WERE IN ITE. I agree what he said.

5, well, i've beem through a semeseter in poly, pretty stressful compare to N level. In this 5 months can really kills a people. Most of my close buddies from ITE fall sick after attending 1 month of lecture. Me too, headache, cant eat, not enough sleep. Never mind, just smile and solve it through. Hahaz, after first semester exams, the result i got was Satisfied for me. Especially maths, the killer module. a B and a C. Hardwork paid off. But disappointment in Engineering Machanics, surpose to get A but a B+. Totally of 1 A, 4 B, 1 C. GPA=3.292

6, In my class, get to know this friend of mine, Pang Li Tu. A Johor Boy, hahaz. very entertaining but a very smart person. What a waste on him, surpose to study in NUS now but choose to study in NYP. This person is Snatching places with us from ITE! hahaz, its alrite. Learn alot from him, those very cheem Chinese words and maths. He is my Hero for my maths, hah.

7, Currently having my holidays. In school, i wanted holidays so badly but now i wanted to go back schools reason is to SEE CHICKS, YEAH!, the schools atmostphere and dont wanna rotten at home even though i got work. Went to Johor rencently with Chin Fei-> army boy and LI TU-> JB boys hah!. He drives us to see waterfalls and eat Laksi lemak, quite nice.

8, Surprisingly, i'm also back in Student Volunteering Corps (SVC). Its has beem 2 years since i last help out there. Seeing old faces bring me a sense of volunteering urged. This time, kokwei and i were in the communittee in charge of Youth Volunteering Involvement Progamme ( YVIP ). Vick is the chairman of the projects, i wanna help him out in this as he is the one who brough me into this volunteering orangisation and giving me a new challenge ahead.

9, Vick, i respect him alot. He used to be in the same ITE with me and now in SP, can see in his eyes many quanilty i always wanted. Like, encouargement, responsiblity, energertic and leadership. I hope i can be like him one day. kokwei and i is posted to Logistic. Taking charge each every single items they needed. A new challenge ahead. I believe i can be diferent person after this project ended as in like able to speak up infornt of many people and giving talk or insperation to everyone.

10, OK, let me ends here. That it for the lifestyle in me.
2.26am, ended. Goodnite.

DAMMIT WHY U ALWAYS LIKE THIS...

2004-11-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

As usaual... Monday is my pratical lession... During lunch time, i call sallie to took my jacket for me as i'm worried someone else took it by mistake... i went to the hall to find it myslef...

after i found it, as i walking down the stage, Ryan they all said some words insulted me, i used my jacket want to scare him off, while i wave my the jacket towards him, the clip flew out and hited his face... I didnt do it on purpose as i didnt knew the clip flew out...

I said lots of time sorry to him, he ask me to get off...

Just now i apologise to him at msn, he still the same attitude... dont wanted to lose to others... DAMM man, why u wont change your attitude? He said he wanted to challenge me on the piste after he got his blade...

Shit... u wanted to challenge me, JUST BRING IT ON... I wont let history happened again...

AAAAAAAAArrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh... really angry man... this guy soon or later will regret as he wont change his attitude..

end here : 8.41pm

Raiden's boring day...

2004-10-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

What a tiring day today... pratical whole day from 8am to 5pm ... During pratical, i accidentally hit the workpiece to the magnect table (bang) and fly away... I always thought this wont happened on me however its wrong...

Really disappointed, Ryan had choosen his team already but not me... What the hell, maybe i'm can't fence in the tournament that i wish for very long... Ryan, althought he is close to me in the fencing club however he wants to get what he wants for... maybe he thinks that i'm lousy than the others...

I've been training so hard for the past 8 months... this is the result i get... CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE IS MY MISTAKE... coach! when are u starts to train me personally? I always wants to be outstanding than the others, why this time i can't...

Haiz... tomolo there's ED and blueprint reading class test... must score well in this test...

End here 8.36 pm

first day of creating this dairy... heez (^_^)...

2004-10-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

purpose of creating this blogger is to speak out all my problem before i got bust out... Okay, let mi start 2molo cos its really late now and tired...